As I embark on a journey that is work related. I stumble
across the idea that I have not flown sober before.
In all these years, I have been medicated under marijuana,
and beer while flying. Being sober for almost five years now,
I find new challenges await myself. I have a trip to Chicago to work for two weeks
this weekend coming up. Of course, I am
fearful, and slightly confident person, plus the idea of
flying has had an impact on my new life. Not only is the flight a challenge but
being away from
what I call home for 2 weeks is also something I have been
praying about. The work I have to do is being judged by higher ups in my
company, and this adds
to the stress of this trip.
How does one deal with all this commotion. He gives it over
to God and prays and meditates. That is what I have been doing for over two
weeks in preparation for
This journey to Chicago. I am not thrilled, yet a little bit
excited to see how I will react. Everyone says I will be ok, and will be fine.
I have to believe them and myself
That this too shall pass, and all will turn out right. You see
it’s the little things that get me stirred up. I should be so happy to get out
of Midland, Texas. This place is
Not all that, but to me it is home. All my toys are here,
and my AA groups and family. However this is my job, and I need to do this in
order to keep my job. I knew this day would come,
And there are to be many flights that I will take to other
parts of the country as time goes on. So I signed up for this to challenge
myself, my weakness and strengths to be tested on this journey.
I can’t give in and I will not. That was my problem when I
was drinking, and it did not work. I lost my job several times when I didn’t
want to do something.
I will give this to God and hope my sanity stays in place
and I can be a productive member of society and not a basket case. It is God
will for me to go and do my best.
I have the hope and confidence I can get , and I am working
on myself in staying in tune with AA. This has helped me also deal with this
new adventure.
The next post will be next week in Chicago, where I will let
you in on the experience , and faith that has become from this trial. God
Bless.